Phyllis doesn't know that I have had this post in the draft file since Aug. 1st. I did not tell her that I was working on it. I did (6) six different drafts. None of the drafts came close when I was done. I was pissed that I could not express how I felt. Monday Aug. 11th, on my way back from my sister's house, I heard my way to express.
I'm not a music expert. I like all kinds of music. I may like a song for the beat, the solos, or lyrics. Craig Morgan is a country music singer. He has a song called "Tough". On Thur. July 31st I found out "I thought I was Tough".
At 3:45 pm, on the above date, nurses moved Phyllis back into the operating room to remove her right pinkie finger. We found out the finger had to be removed just (2) two days before. In the song "Tough" Craig sings "I've seen her cry, I've seen her break. In my eyes, she'll always be strong.". Phyllis did not want to loose a piece of her body. It did not matter how or when, but Gangrene had set in. The doctor told her it had to be removed or she could loose her hand. She broke. I held her tight, tried to comfort her, and just kept telling her I love you. In the pre-op room I was using my cell phone as an excuse to wipe away a few tears. Phyllis did not know this. If she did, she did not say anything.
"She's strong, pushes on, can't slow her down
She can take anything life dishes out
There was a time
Back before she was mine
When I thought I was tough"
Two days later she was at Spartanburg Memorial Hospital for a family member. The rest of the week she was at the Hospice Center with the same member.
"Never once complained, refusing to give up"
Phyllis gets mad at me when she is crying because of a sad movie scene, and she looks over and I'm not. I'm not the guy that cries at the end of movies. I did not get emotional when my father past. I even cheered when E.T. was all white, and dead in the ditch. On Thursday, July 31st at 3:45 pm I just thought I was tough.
**I would like to thank Craig Morgan for his help on my (7) seventh draft of this post. I'm satisfied......**
4 comments:
'Tough' comes in many forms. As we get older, (because you will always be older than me :-)we tend to look at things differently huh? But just as I was about to say that you actualy showed a sensitive side, you go and throw in the ET comment! But I'll still claim you as a brother. (it might get me something oneday!)
That was not a "hard" read. I hope that Phyllis keeps her spirits up. Draft number seven was well done. I did find humor in the "E.T." comment. Good luck in future battles.
The et comment was terrible. I love the tough song and you placed it well inside your post. I do not know anybody with lupus, but cancer has taken my dad. I do understand all that you face.
well said, kid. i can't even fault you for listening to new country! as always, help is here waiting for you. Oscar Tango (off topic) i'm going to post an updated racecar this evening if i can chase the wiff off the desktop.
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